((…engulfed…))

I’m feeling silence I never experienced,

& it just leaves me so stoned,

As if my life is halted for a moment,

& time has finally called me disowned..

I am doing what I used to do,

but its meaning is now unclear,

even when I just lie on my bed,

I’m enveloped by my inner fear..

I can hear the bells ringing far away,

but not sure if the sound will persist,

just like I don’t if I’ll be able to live,

or my existence will soon cease to exist..

I close my eyes for the darkness to engulf me,

but my pacified mind takes no rest,

cuz even though I feel my heart is broken,

I can feel it beat in my chest..

Come back home..!

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When the first tear drop,
rolled down my cheeks,
my face cried out to me…
Come back home..!

When the first big sob,
took away my breath,
my soul cried out to me…
Come back home..!

When the first heartache,
followed my first heart break,
my life cried out to me…
Come back home..!

When the first death,
ditched away my only life,
my sorrows cried out to me…
Come back home..!

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Jis chaand ki chaah hai..

The Moon

Jis chaand ki chaah hai kabse,

Wo baadlon ke pardon mein chhupa hai,

Haasil karna chahta hoon lekin,

Ye dil bhi apni zidd pe ada hai..

Kyon hai uss chaand ko guroor,

Maana ki haan uspe koi daag nahi,

Par uss dam pe yoon tadpana,

Ye humein hargiz manzoor nahi..

Kar le tu lakh manaa,

Ek din tu bhi zameen par aayega,

Jab sitare tujhe bhool jaaenge,

Aur tera wajood dagmagaega..

Tab dhoondh lena mujhe,

Mai kisi maikhane mein miloonga,

Aur na aaya gar tu,

Toh mai roz raat naya chaand dhoondh loonga..

Na hoga tere jaisa roop,

Par usmein guroor toh na hoga,

Aur jab shaam ho jaegi,

Toh us nacheez ka bhi kuchh suroor toh hoga..

a heart not-so-strong

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Why is there a heart-break
Why there is a pain
Why is it, whatever I do
Goes away in vain..

It seemed all fine
I felt happiness was mine
Then suddenly what happened
With little miss sunshine..

Dark clouds all around
Peace is no where to be found
In and out side of me, I see
Fake life on ground..

Tears dry away one day
this pain, too will fade away
and maybe then I can begin again
some place where there is no night or day..

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REGRETS

I regret I didn’t meet you earlier,

I regret I was not yours when I met you,

I regret I was touched by someone else,

before I was touched by you…

I regret I didn’t admit my love earlier,

I regret I tested you,

I regret I didn’t see the world from your eyes,

or see myself through you…

I regret that I acted stupid,

I regret that I hurt you,

I regret that I could never express myself enough,

especially when it was the faith I had in you…

I regret that all my life I waited for  someone special,

I regret that not easily I can have you,

I regret of having so many regrets,

but not that I’m telling them to you…