((…engulfed…))

I’m feeling silence I never experienced,

& it just leaves me so stoned,

As if my life is halted for a moment,

& time has finally called me disowned..

I am doing what I used to do,

but its meaning is now unclear,

even when I just lie on my bed,

I’m enveloped by my inner fear..

I can hear the bells ringing far away,

but not sure if the sound will persist,

just like I don’t if I’ll be able to live,

or my existence will soon cease to exist..

I close my eyes for the darkness to engulf me,

but my pacified mind takes no rest,

cuz even though I feel my heart is broken,

I can feel it beat in my chest..

“the.last.goodbye”

Wait for the night, it’s still daylight..
I don’t want the world to see me cry..

It’s not a bright sun, are you gonna come?
Or should I just walk alone?

I’ve reached home, and I’m still alone,
Where did u go away?

I search for a sign, wanna assure your mine,
But all my dreams are drowning..

I wait past the dusk for you, but this anticipation seems new,
I wish I could dupe da time..

Tell me I ain’t pushed away, cuz I have nothing left to say,
What will I do without u..

I think I was tryna hold in sand, now when I open my hand,
Its empty and you are gone..

Happy we were once upon a time, but did I do some crime,
To wait for you till eternity?

Oh I’m tired of the games, my life always plays,
Now I’m gonna retire soon..

Hope I’ll see you again, meet you in a new game,
In another world and another life.. Good bye!

REGRETS

I regret I didn’t meet you earlier,

I regret I was not yours when I met you,

I regret I was touched by someone else,

before I was touched by you…

I regret I didn’t admit my love earlier,

I regret I tested you,

I regret I didn’t see the world from your eyes,

or see myself through you…

I regret that I acted stupid,

I regret that I hurt you,

I regret that I could never express myself enough,

especially when it was the faith I had in you…

I regret that all my life I waited for  someone special,

I regret that not easily I can have you,

I regret of having so many regrets,

but not that I’m telling them to you…