((…engulfed…))

I’m feeling silence I never experienced,

& it just leaves me so stoned,

As if my life is halted for a moment,

& time has finally called me disowned..

I am doing what I used to do,

but its meaning is now unclear,

even when I just lie on my bed,

I’m enveloped by my inner fear..

I can hear the bells ringing far away,

but not sure if the sound will persist,

just like I don’t if I’ll be able to live,

or my existence will soon cease to exist..

I close my eyes for the darkness to engulf me,

but my pacified mind takes no rest,

cuz even though I feel my heart is broken,

I can feel it beat in my chest..

…………..aa gaya

Tere bin saanso ko behlana aa gaya,

ab rote-rote pal mein aansu chhupana aa gaya..

Kabhi hasa karte the jin par hum,

ab toh dheere dheere unse kadam milana bhi aa gaya..

Na kar paae ishq tum humse,

ab humein bhi aapna pyaar chhupana aa gaya..

Kar le tu sitam chahe jitna,

gaeron ke saath dekh tumhe, ab muskurana bhi aa gaya..

Chahe kar tu sada hi inkar,

tere ikrar karne ka tareeka bhi samajh aa gaya..

Kari na yeh umeed, ki milenge dobara,

teri tasveer ko dekhkar sona bhi humein aa gaya.. 

I dream..

I dream…
Not cuz, I have many aspirations
but cuz I don’t want my hopes to be broken…
I dream…
Not cuz, I feel sleep is heavy on my eye lids
but cuz I don’t wanna face the world; as it is…
I dream…
Not cuz, I love fictitious characters
but cuz I want to run away from the apers…
I dream…
Not cuz, I don’t have a burdensome work
but cuz my thoughts just go berserk…
I dream…
Not cuz, I’m not interested
but cuz I’m never noticed…
I dream…
Not cuz, I want to be absent
but cuz I wish to while away my lonely moments…
I dream…
Not cuz, I want all of them to come true
but cuz I hope for at least one or two…

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Jis chaand ki chaah hai..

The Moon

Jis chaand ki chaah hai kabse,

Wo baadlon ke pardon mein chhupa hai,

Haasil karna chahta hoon lekin,

Ye dil bhi apni zidd pe ada hai..

Kyon hai uss chaand ko guroor,

Maana ki haan uspe koi daag nahi,

Par uss dam pe yoon tadpana,

Ye humein hargiz manzoor nahi..

Kar le tu lakh manaa,

Ek din tu bhi zameen par aayega,

Jab sitare tujhe bhool jaaenge,

Aur tera wajood dagmagaega..

Tab dhoondh lena mujhe,

Mai kisi maikhane mein miloonga,

Aur na aaya gar tu,

Toh mai roz raat naya chaand dhoondh loonga..

Na hoga tere jaisa roop,

Par usmein guroor toh na hoga,

Aur jab shaam ho jaegi,

Toh us nacheez ka bhi kuchh suroor toh hoga..