Even if I am, I’m smiling.. because your just besides..
With tears soaking me, I try to absorb so much love..
I know I wont get this feel again, not even in the heavens above…
What was dormant inside me is now evoked again..
I can smile and cry all at once, and it’s not a game..
I try to silent my sighs, but they wanna cry out to you..
Just say your name again and again and see nothing beyond you..
Oh that one glimpse of a tear, falling on the heart of clay..
Brings back the pains you took to say what you wanted to say..
The little red dots, I so wish, could be blood of mine..
Because what was mine for all those years has surrendered to a force divine…
# understanding loss of people- the loved ones, in wars